Figured it out (sike)
Everyone seems to have it all figured out, I’ve been noticing as of recent. I really envy how firm people seem to be in their beliefs, their truths. I don’t care if that’s religion or the best way to tune a carb it must be lovely to know you are fully right. Me on the other hand, the more I think it seems the less I know, the more I settle into the knowledge that I don’t need to have any answers the more comfortable I become with it. I think it ties hand in hand with a sense of wonder, if we are fully convinced in our opinions we lose the ability to be inspired by the times we are proven dead, absolute, and completely wrong. Don’t get me wrong, I still relish the times I get to apply something I’ve learned or theorized but I have also noted how hand in hand these come with absolutely fucking the next thing on my docket up. Thanks universe, I get a little too comfy in my ego. Gotta keep her in check. I think I’m going to work on becoming an expert at being wrong, or at least spend a little more time on it, because it seems these are the times when I am actually open to learning. To cultivate the ability to fail without letting it affect how I think of myself, how I view my abilities, or what I’m worth. Taking failure with humility and a mind open to new perspective. Just as most religions say we are not capable of knowing truth, maybe that’s the beauty, stop trying to force your opinions down others throats, and stop putting so much stock in them all together, because there is a high probability they are nothing other than a heaping pile of failed perspective. We view through the lenses of our experiences and bias and then are shocked when our view is tainted, seems to me we should come to expect it. You wouldn’t look through a piece of warped glass and expect to do a great job taking in the vista would you? So why do we stare through our traumas and unhealed bias and expect to find wisdom? Doesn’t make your current perception less beautiful, or have less opportunity to teach you something, it’s just not the truth at the end of the day. Just a bit of a musing, it’s all good though, it’s probably wrong.
Love,
Fitz
